code breaker – the godfathers series:
number one
i was so fucking mad at myself
after we talked because
i wasted the time with stupidstuff
stupidstuff of hangups
and old fears
deadair and breaths between words
and just fucking nothing that makes any sense
to a thinking person
Been all at sea until I’ve drown
I’ve been high
And I’ve been low
And I don’t know where to go
you will never understand me
you aren’t down with the struggle
should have said
EveryMotherFuckingSecond
should have said
EveryThought AbsoluteHeart
talking about those things
with you
puts out loud into our world
how small and afraid I am
here and here and here
leaves me exposed without
the armour
i have worked so hard to mold
and curate into a shape
that looks like me
leaves me wanting to take back
everything I have said
wanting to run far away
wastedtime wastedtime wastedtime
Been all at sea until I’ve drown
I’ve been high
And I’ve been
Low
And I don’t know where to go
you will never understand me
you aren’t down with the struggle
the mayseptember magic
always cracks that code
finds the dark corner
where the littlestlittleyellow is hiding
Been all at sea until I’ve drown
image and thoughts:
sean simone
and
the godfathers: birth school work death
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